*Tiptoes in the room in a towel.* Hi Guys, I got some news for you. I'm moving to my new account, right now. [link] But I wanna talk a little too. So for the next week or two, if you've really been itching to talk to me, tell me. I'll make a big spot of space for you all.


I just had my first shower of the new year. Washing away all the things of the past year felt so good. There's been so many things changing within all of our lives and.. it feels good just to wash everything you don't need away, dry yourself off, renew, and dress for whatever occasion is comming for you. Wether it be work, a special dinner, to hang around the house, clean, or getting ready for a nice long rest. It's always important to dress yourself right. With nothing more then you need, nor with anything you don't want.

Because.. if anything is on you that you dislike, then you arent gonna look nor feel like yourself. Looking like yourself, being happy with it, is just as important as being happy on the inside.

No, that does not count as being 'beautiful or ugly', or for some of you.. looking completely elsewise, an animal, fairy, dwarf.. What clothes you wear.. what brandname.. scars or anomalies in what is 'normal' to look like.. That doesn't matter.. People also say, it's not what you begin with, but what you make. This is not true. Where you begin DOES effect you.. but it DOES NOT affect what you can do. Because what you, yourself, will alter your life to and choose what you end up with, is souly up to your actions. So no matter what your status, color, size.. You take it, and make it into the best way it could represent your spirit. Your style, Your rhythm, as long as it shows off the desires to be who you are and allows you to do whatever your prepared for.

You can do whatever your heart desires.. now that that's out of the way..

Happy New Years



It's a new year, a new fresh start. I'll be turning 18 soon.. It's only right that I feel a sense of change.. It's about time.. I've changed so much these past years. Made so many new friends.. Earned the right to call someone wonderful my mate.. and now I step forward in excelling my artwork on this site forward.



I Love you all, Hope your safe. Merry New Years, Best wishes to all.



New Account:

[link]

"Art no longer exists. There was a time when people with vision and talent worked at their craft to create beauty. Today, art is a scam that allows the laziest, least gifted members of society to make money doing nothing. Every artist in the world is an unemployed jackhole who refuses to get a real job. Modern artists spend one day a month pissing on crucifixes and taking Polaroids of faggots with bullwhips hanging out of their assholes. The rest of the time they can be found in cafes wearing black clothes and sneering at everyone, then they all get AIDS and die. Because so many talentless fools have signed onto the pyramid scheme that is the art business, the definition of what constitutes art has been stretched to the point that it has no meaning. The word art is now applied to anything, including the music of Barbra Streisand, which proves it's a giant crock of shit. "

A very Crude, but interesting bit of text I found today.


Quite so often I look around on this artsite, and more then every couple of pictures, I end up saying 'wtf..' more than a few times.

It's so hard, to find something, that someone truly puts 'their' heart into. That wasn't inspired by any means but the beating in their chest. No 'anatomy' learned from books or taught to them, or electronical output lookalikes ( From TV shows, Games ), or uniques, Not even art brought on by seeing something amazing created by a true artist.. The only thing, that anyone needs to show.. is just.. something.. that is themself.


It's all I wanna see.. It's all that anyone, really, needs to see. and there isn't enough of it here. In life. In General.. None. There needs to be more.. art. Not the every day used word, but true art, that isn't just seen.. it's felt, held, and never leaves your mind for the remainder of the day.

Maybe it's time I stepped up and was an artist..



( PS: No, I'm not cracking down on anatomy. Anatomy.. is something that can be learned, along with many things. But only true art, Can't be learned, or taught by any means. It can only be shown. )





ART IS off -


-Promised snowboard pictures- Snowboard project on hold.

DM, Not started
Galadrex, Halfway?

Rest I'm not listing on here cause they'll be done randomly after the rest.

-Trades- Not Taking Anymore, But ask away.
Buffalobobby's comic- Had DONE But Got deleted in a family sport of deleting random objects.

-Requests
Zak's 10 pictures, Put on hold. Starting 1.

-Birthday
Sean's Birthday Picture. Almost done
Dohrac's Birthday Picture. Halfway
skeef's Birthday Picture. Started.

-Personal Projects
Refsheet

GH-Mongo, Redoing. Didn't think it was good enough, and I'm not about to give someone I like, bad art.

If I promised you, or Owe you art, let me know.

Just a reminder, Guys.

*Starts polishing the bells on his harness.*

*Buffers his hoovers.*

*Stuffs his stockings thick and hard.*

*Doublechecks his Naughty list.*

... *Marks off a few on his Nice list.*

*Finishes wrapping the gifts, especially his biggest one.*

*Fills the hunkly dark chocolate puffs with his special creme.*

*Dips his oranges in chocolate.*

*Ties the Bows. Bows the Ties.*

*Places things under the tree.*

*Asks whoever is listening up there to protect his friends for another year..*


Merry Christmas everyone.

Sorry I was a noshow the past few days.. life.. has thrown me some curveballs.

But alas. Just Four more days until this year will be put behind, at a stop, without one moment more. No more badness from this curse of a year will be able to diminish things that are held dear to you nor me. *Big loving musclehugs all around.*

..Then again. This next year is for change. If this year hadn't added a huge shock value to everyone's lives, there'd be no need for change.. But change is enevitable, it must happen.. so really being forced into seeing what's infront of you, not just part of what is infront of ya.. But, something jolting you hard enough to put your whole life, past, present, and future into perspective..

What I'm trying to say, is that this bad year was needed, to rip up everyone's lives, so that the pieces could be sorted threw this next year, and to be replaced where they are needed most. Or for me, I feel that is it was.


Just a glance over this year from my point of view, Things that happened to me if you wanna know..

( Blahblahblah... )

The day before new years, I could do more than 150 pushups strait without loosing my breathe. My grandmother had her surgery, and had her stroke on New Years morning. 3 months strait I spent taking care of my grandfather, living with him in his home. No Breaks, no going home to get my stuff. March 21st, My Dragonfriend came to visit for my birthday, before heading home.. It's what got me threw everything. March 25th, birthday, began my last year as a kid.

3 months later, Still at my grandfathers 5-6 days of the week, staying overnight, the others were spent cleaning up things at home that had piled up. My grandmother came home. September 13th, Got my first real job. Started working out. Things were looking up.

November, quit my job, my mother went into surgery on the 14th, couldn't walk for a month and still recovering. Took care of her, grandma, and grandpa, and rest of family during thanksgiving, and christmas.

( /Blahblahblah... )

..I still havn't gotten my driver's license. XD My photo on my ID is when my hair wasn't even past my chin, and now it's a good 2-3 iches away from my belly button. To my big fuzzy soft bumper in the back. (Until I shreaded it, of course. )



Goals for the next three months.


Transfer to new account after new years. Fresh start.
Job at the end of January. It's all ready for me to start.
Driver's license at the end of Febuary. I'm a kickass driver. Even my mother admitted that.
18 at the end of March. ( March 25th. )

-Please, don't think That means I wanna do anything only a 18+er is allowed to do. I'm not into that sort of thing, not with anyone besides my DragonKnight.

.. DragonKnight.. How that must sound.. ...gay. But I assure you, if you ever met him, You'd understand, tallest person I've ever met, more than 200 pounds from being on the swim team and weightlifting. Iverly protective, gives off such a strong, firm, stable.. but.. gentle pressence.. tight tummied, very amazing accent, and just.. so.. soo.. MMMMmmfff.. For a dirtbiking badboy, his heart is so bright..

He really is a knight in his own way. A Modern aged one.

*Blushes* Anyway, I'll fill out another journal about him later, when the time is right.

After all of that, If your still reading.. Happy new years, Merry christmas. I Love ya all very deeply from the bottom of my heart. Goodnight and Sweet Dreams.





ART IS off -


-Promised snowboard pictures- Snowboard project on hold.

DM, Not started
Galadrex, Halfway?

Rest I'm not listing on here cause they'll be done randomly after the rest.

-Trades- Not Taking Anymore, But ask away.
Buffalobobby's comic- Had DONE But Got deleted in a family sport of deleting random objects.

-Requests
Zak's 10 pictures, Put on hold. Starting 1.

-Birthday
Sean's Birthday Picture. Almost done
Dohrac's Birthday Picture. Halfway
skeef's Birthday Picture. Started.

-Personal Projects
Refsheet

GH-Mongo, Redoing. Didn't think it was good enough, and I'm not about to give someone I like, bad art.

If I promised you, or Owe you art, let me know.

Her cancer bloodtest came back negative, thank god. She just came out of surgery and their unsure of the actual cist they removed was caused by cancer regrowth or not. Their gonna run some more tests.

I Havn't posted a journal in 2 months.. *Rubs the back of his head* Sorry guys, I Know some of you have wondered what I've been up to. So here's a quick rundown.


My Friend made it safe back from Israel.
I Cut my hair short. er.
Diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder.
Diagnosed with "Night Terrors".
Put on antidepressents.
Quit my job. They were trying to screw me over.
Tommorrow is my bro's 23rd birthday. He's "Threatening" To move out. .. I Hope he does.
Aunt's Babyshower got pushed back. She's dew the 8th of December.
Thanksgiving.. dunno what we're gonna do as it was usually hosted at my grandmas..
Grandma Starts Pool Therapy. I'll be assisting in that.
Taking care of my mother since she won't be allowed out of bed for quite sometime.
Lil bro's on verge of mental breakdown, again. Last time he tried to murder someone and ended up in the Teen Psych Ward. He's Making threats and talking to the wall again.
Coyotes have moved in again, One got after me last night until I slapped him across the head with a double ended dildo and threw him to the fox pit. .. Not really. But One got after me and I beat the shit out of it.

Someone put my lucky bamboo in the toaster. Then duct taped it to the wall.

I'm suprised they didn't douse it in gasoline, and light it on fire.

Yeah.. I'm up for anything happening right now. That's not everything that has/will happen, just the basics and a few extra sums.

I don't see an opening in Life until the new year.

So that's what I'm up to. Um. I'm fine everyone, I've delt with this when I was younger, I can deal with it now. Please don't worry, it's not needed. *BIIIIGHUUUUGS*

PS: The fedex guy just gropehugged me. wtf.





ART IS off -


-Promised snowboard pictures- Snowboard project on hold.

DM, Not started
Galadrex, Halfway?

Rest I'm not listing on here cause they'll be done randomly after the rest.

-Trades- Not Taking Anymore, But ask away.
Buffalobobby's comic- Had DONE But Got deleted in a family sport of deleting random objects.

-Requests
Zak's 10 pictures, Put on hold. Starting 1.

-Birthday
Sean's Birthday Picture. Almost done
Dohrac's Birthday Picture. Halfway
skeef's Birthday Picture. Started.

-Personal Projects
Refsheet

GH-Mongo, Redoing. Didn't think it was good enough, and I'm not about to give someone I like, bad art.

If I promised you, or Owe you art, let me know.

1: I used to talk to my ceiling for hours when I was a kid, and even flung a oiece of macaronie up one time to try and make the ceiling eat it.

2: I have Night Terrors. ( Night terrors are nightmares that are realistic/powerful enough to the extent of causing physical harm of the self or of others around you. )

3: On halloween, I painted my entire body with black and blue washable facepaint, and then grabbed my uncle from behind. ( yes I had clothes on, black clothes ) and He yelled GAWD DUM NIGGARS. and stormed out the door.

4: Yestorday I told my black 6'5 283pound muscled coworked that I was good at giving head. Wether it's true or not, you decide.

5: My eyes are offset, One is in tune to see far off distances, while the other is good at seeing upclose. But this Presents a problem, because one of my eyes has a 'click' in it when focusing upclose, and causes the muscles in the uppercorner to contract if looking at something in the right position upclose for too long without my reading glasses. Making me look highly deformed as it drawls my eye up and sideways. But after a day or so, it relaxes and goes back to normal position.

6: Everyone that doesn't know me well complains that I'm too quiet/calm/ "A Loner". Which kinda conflicts with everyone else I Know, thinking that I'm too hyper, highbeat and snuggly.

7: I have a wristband with Three Stars on it. It's possibly one of my most important personal possesions. ( .. Possesion? I don't think that's spelt right. )

8: I was in a car accident and have problems lifting weight over my shoulders. I can lift quite a bit, it suprises people. But once it gets over my shoulders I just plainly can't do it.

9: While most kids at 13-16 look up porn on the internet, I was more into talking to people twice my age about 'serious issues'. *Blinks* I don't remember what they were, but It was alot better than porn. I think. Porbly not..

10: One time, I yelled out 'I'M GOING TO FUCKING VAPORIZE YOU. YOU FUCKING RETARDED REJECT BARNEY MILLAAAAR.' in class. Right before getting pulled out the door. Just because Fuck is an acceptable word and Kill isn't. The Teach only got onto me for making fun of Barney Miller though.





ART IS off -


-Promised snowboard pictures- Snowboard project on hold.

DM, Not started
Galadrex, Halfway?

Rest I'm not listing on here cause they'll be done randomly after the rest.

-Trades- Not Taking Anymore, But ask away.
Buffalobobby's comic- Had DONE But Got deleted in a family sport of deleting random objects.

-Requests
Zak's 10 pictures, Put on hold. Starting 1.

-Birthday
Sean's Birthday Picture. Almost done
Dohrac's Birthday Picture. Halfway
skeef's Birthday Picture. Started.

-Personal Projects
Refsheet

GH-Mongo, Redoing. Didn't think it was good enough, and I'm not about to give someone I like, bad art.

If I promised you, or Owe you art, let me know.